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[Friday
June 5th, 2009 @ 7:38am] |
so this morning i realized that i had not posted in my eljay since like january (i think). wow. i love the release this gives me. but...i guess i got tired of having nothing but negative things to say. ha.
i'll start out with the bad...the mema situation at home is beyond horrible. her alzheimer's is progressing and life with her plain ass sucks. it is absolute misery.
that aside. life is pretty dang ok. :)here's some of the hilights of the past few months...
eric has graduated from college. he's gotten hired as a second grade teacher here at one of the local elementary schools. he starts in august!
eric and i just got back from a week cruise to the cayman islands. so beautiful! so relaxing. so much fun!!! *sigh* i love that man! it's amazing that he puts up with me and this homelife. really.
in april eric and i took the boys to washington dc for a family trip. pammie and loren went too. that was a wonderful trip. i'd love to go back again and see all the rest of what we couldn't fit into those 4 days.
maddox is a year old now! and the most precious little spoiled rotten man ever!!! <3
ginny and bailey are engaged!!! whoo hoo!!! wedding stuff!!!
casey is truly in love with seth! and living with him for the summer! wow. lol the baby is old enough to be living with a man! *faint*
geez. so much has happened. but you get the idea. lots of good. :) if it wasn't for mema's mind going and her treating us like shit everyday of our lives...things would actually be wonderful. but i promise that situation truly outweighs all the good right now.
trying to keep my head up. holding on to the positives as best as i can! chin up, right?!
you have no idea how big of a deal this is... but ginny and bailey and eric and i might actually get to go out to dinner tonight!!!!!!!! unbelievable!!!! with both of us needing babysitting, it's always one couple or the other going somewhere while the other babysits. (and maddox is a lot easier to handle than mema). but mama might be babysitting both tonight!!! WHOO HOO!!!!!!! our mama rocks so much harder than yours!!!! lol
off to work now!
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[Monday
January 5th, 2009 @ 3:25pm] |
i do hope it's off to a good start. :) it appears to be around here.
christmas was wonderful. as always. so much family and so much food. whew! christmas eve and eating at mema's. christmas eve = santa for maddox. christmas morning for us. christmas dinner (lunch) at mema's. christmas night at mama and eddie's with much food and presents. then christmas with the inlaws in waycross. wrapped up by a christmas visit to my dad's side of the family. BUSY. i think this holiday season was much busier than ever before.
christmas holiday summary:
FOOD everywhere
pretty christmas trees
alcohol
cooking massive meals for massive amounts of people
baking galore
ginny baking homemade cookies IN AN APRON
toys for maddox
yo gabba gabba
entertainment extravaganza haha
alcohol
bonfire
champagne from the bottle. classy. (christmas night)
movies
the rutledge boys X 5 (all are awesome!)
alcohol
dishwasher joy
STRESS
HAPPINESS
drama (ugh)
presents
alcohol...ETC.
"merry fucking christmas"
hahahahahaha!!!! memories! :)
new years eve wasn't too crazy. but it was fun. gran marnier. patron. whiskey/bourbon (one, the other or both). beer. and mucho illegal fireworks. LOL we drove over to sc and bought up some good stuff!!! fun!
new years eve summary:
no tree fires
gorgeous explosions in the sky
pow! bang! boom!
the tank!
glowing hearts captured on film
glowing red penis captured on film. HA.
drinks in hand.
baby on hip.
good time :)
i finished eclipse on saturday. started breaking dawn. only on the 1st chapter. I WANT TO READ.
ginny and i went to the theater last night and saw twilight one last time on the big screen. *sigh* LOVE IT! i'm a killer. look at me. i am "glitter monster"! i could have killed ginny. funniest shit ever.
back at work today. it hasn't been fun. poo.
the boys go back to school on wed.
eric's school picks back up on monday. he starts satudent teaching next week. we are so on the home stretch now. :) yay!
mema's been doing so much better. :) makes life a whole lot easier. a WHOLE LOT easier.
so the holidays are gone. back to work, school, regular routines, doctor's appointments, dentist appointments...blah blah blah yackity schmackity.
ginny and i are exercising!!! that makes me super stoked!!!!!! we're eating better too. we didn't even get popcorn at the theater last night. CRAZINESS!
mama has a black eye. i don't like it. did like traveling down memory lane with mama's boxes of goodies yesterday. and running around outside at the bluff. :)
yesterday at mama's i was jumping artound entertaining the baby and crashed into a lamp and almost sent it flying through the air. ginny busted out laughing and said "what the hell was that?!" mama said "that was something that would happen to casey." hahahaha! that made me miss casey!!!! heehee!
i'm sure i've left out a amillion and one things, but that's all i can think of... or have time for right now!
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[Tuesday
December 9th, 2008 @ 10:45am] |
so... today was the morning from HELL. woke up still fighting this cold. my back was/is killing me (yay sciatica). jax's bearded dragon is sick. looks pretty bad. our vet doesnt treat reptiles. jax cried all mroning. eric was gruff. he said "it's just a lizard." it's jax's pet!!! :( then mema got up.. and before we could lock our room this morning mema was in their digging through our cabinets and throwing clothes around "looking for stuff of hers". GEEZ. my life is on an absolute of of control roller coaster. and it's funny. i'm actually happy deep down. i'm very happy with my marriage. i <3 eric! my boys are both doing well. i love having ginny, bailey and maddox as neighbors! ...but juggling mema and finances and work and just everything is really wearing me down. i'm trying so hard to keep a smile on. i have so much to be happy about. but it's so hard not to let the doom and gloom overtake you. *sigh*
i've never been so stressed at christmas. and it's not JUST money. of course that's an issue. but it's not that. everything is different. sometimes different is stupid. *sigh again*
i'm in love with the twilight series! ty ginny!!!! i'm about a third of the way thu the 3rd book right now. :) <33333333333333333 i wish i had more time to read. i'm finding out how much i enjoy it all over again! i've read like 3 books in a month and i'd only read like a book in the past year til now. lol sidebar: ginny and i saw twilight twice (once with casey baby!) in the theater. i think we should see it again. :) heehee
POP CHAMPAGNE! haha!!! we started a new christmas tradition. when we decorated mema's (fake, monchromatic) christmas tree in the living room we "toasted the tree" with a bottle of champagne. then two nights later we bought a live tree and put on the back proch/ sun room and put all of MY sentimental ornaments on it and then toasted it with a new bottle of champagne! FUN! good times. good times. :) my tree turned out so good that we followed the bottle of champagne with a special treat... abottle of grand mariner (sp?). :)
i wish we could go see the nutcracker again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was beautiful!!!!!
eric has discovered an awesome recipe for spinach/artichoke dip. he and bailey made it once. he made it again last night. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. delicious treat!
i gota go to petsmart and try and save Meester Leezard. Wonder Woman to the rescue!!!!!!!!! (maybe.) GOD KNOWS I TRY!
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[Tuesday
November 25th, 2008 @ 11:19am] |
i got all my hair cut off. some days i like it. some days i hate it. i loved it the day it got cut. lol
mema screamed at me this morning. :( she's so unhappy. so confused. this is SO hard.
read then saw twilight. LOVED it.
thanksgiving is this week! yay! family and food! awesome.
trueblood is over. season finale pissed me off. REALLY.
we're poor. sucks.
the bearded dragon is growing. he's neat.
grand patron (sp?) margaritas at chili's are the BOMB.
oops. out of time. consider this a mini update.
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[Friday
November 14th, 2008 @ 10:17am] |
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ginny and bailey and maddox have been our next door neighbors for exactly one week tomorrow. i'll try to sum it up for you a little...
nightly trips to walmart. girl time!!! a thousand dollars in groceries in a week. (no lie). baby-ness everywhere!!!! :) pimp doodie bailey. daisy duke eric. eric and bailey underwear shopping and picking out curtains. me and ginny and wedding/cake show extravaganzas. sharing clothes. big family suppers. xbox 360 non stop. nightcaps. LATE nights. someone to share mema's craziness/bitchiness with. vampire books, shows and movies. pammie's cakes. salsa extravaganzas. an overload of testosterone. some added estrogen. diet/exercise plans. what what in the butt. HA! lots of hugs. lots of i love yous!!!!!!!!!
that's just a quick idea of what's going on at home. i think having ginny and her family around is going to do wonders for my psyche.
maddox is sick today. worse than yesterday. he's just pitiful!!! poor baby!!! (poor ginny and bailey.) he sees the doctor today though!
bailey is job hunting. resumes out yesterday. first interview today! yay!
i gotta work. boo.
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[Tuesday
November 11th, 2008 @ 10:21am] |
i wish i had the time to give you all the wonderful details, but for now this will have to suffice.....
GINNY AND BAILEY AND MADDOX are my freaking next door neighbors!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whooooo hoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[Monday
October 13th, 2008 @ 12:29pm] |
i'm a terrible person. i've gone from having all the patience in the world to having negative patience. i'm snapping at everyone...including mema. my family hates me. i'm going to run eric off. the boys look at me like they're scared of me. i hate me right now. i scare me right now. i truly do not know if i can do this. i knew things wouldnt be easy, but i had no idea. i'm not sure i can do this.
i'm going for a walk.
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[Friday
October 10th, 2008 @ 2:18pm] |
no time for the weary. not time for anything. i'm functioning blindly.
you know your life sucks when your own son watches you having a bad morning and then sends you this text when he leaves for school... "its official mom u mustve been hitler in a past life cuz god hates you today"
does that sum it up for you?
ei yi yi.
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[Monday
September 29th, 2008 @ 11:41am] |
just a quick fyi...
i'm still alive. fam,ily has stepped up to the plate. thank you!!!!! mema is still in hospital. that sucks. spent the weekend sick with a tummy virus. got NOTHING done. that sucks too. still haven't packed my house up. eek. georgia lost. that sucks. there's a lot of suckiness going on right now... and none of it in a good way. haha!
on a good note... while laying in bed sick all weekend i finished up season 2 of Lost and we got a couple of discs into season 3. we MIGHT catch up before the show goes off the air. lol
it's a busy monday morning! back to the grind stone.
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[Thursday
September 18th, 2008 @ 10:18pm] |
went to hospital after work. mema still couldn't (and can't) stand up on her leg. dr ordered xrays. i leave to come home after xrays are made. and then i get the phone call... when mema fell yesterday she fractured her femur.
awesome huh?
my life ROCKS.
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